How is it that you can say whatever you feel to me?
I understand anger and frustration. I understand the way you are.
I don't understand what separates me from them.

You put on a smile to everyone else, even if you say all matters of evil against them... while they aren't watching.
Everyone else gets infinite opportunity but you'll condescend me every chance you get.

I was one of the first who loved you.
I'll always care more than you know.
Neither of us can change that no matter how much either of us want to.

I mean nothing in your book because I'm an easy target, and someone you can always count on to be there when no one else will be...
No matter how bad things are between us, you know that will never change.

I know I'm far from perfect.
I'm so childish sometimes, I even make myself cringe.
I suppose the fault is always mine, and I can't convince either of us otherwise, even if that accusation is false.

I hate that you stomp on my soul and heart only because it makes you feel slightly better...
because you need to vent.
However, the second i need a hand to hold or a heart to hang onto...
It's either "Get over it. You're being overdramatic."
or I say the slightest wrong thing (if even by accident or the fact that it came out wrong) and you're offended and you shut me up.

You break my heart on a more than daily basis.
Sometimes you even do it on purpose.
You're sadistic, you know...?

You hurt me more than you could ever imagine...
and the worst part is that none of this will ever change.

I could leave you forever you know?
If I really wanted to.
If I had a choice.

Instead I choose to love you & do the best I can for you... while you step on me as I work for you.

I'll never make you love me the way I want you to... if at all... ever.

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